Screwball…

Yesterday is a bright day for me after a long bull session, we decided to start a new beginning….. again… Hope it works.. We always argue for one person “Cruella De Vil” her fiendish, self-centered & hard-featured ex-girl friend. Hmp! Actually the meaning of her name is “ a daylight” which is nice but in the contrary she's a shadow of darkness.
Before, she told me that this girl is nice and after loving this girl, as her whole life for so many years, this girl just dump her for one reason… falling in love with his friend “may spark e…” bullshit! Cruella just told her that.

After a long chasing for “Cruella De Vil” and for being a heart broken for a year she just met a cute (ahem…) tall.. ( ahem ahem)… flawless (woot wow..) sexy, gorgeous (!@#$%… ah… what did i said?) the nicest person she ever met…. ( at ako na yun! Plangok!). At first, i told her that i have iya in my life… and she accepted that, hay… another life another relationship. We struggle for so many obstacles ( shit! Dumudugo na ilong ko ka ka english! So kaka talaga…). After fighting for our rights, here comes the bright side. I'm out… every one was shock, well not all of them. And now were both happy. Yesterday, She told me this "Mahal na mahal kita" hmmm… carry mo? She always told me that she loves me, but yesterday morning is different. We wake up like nothing happens. (This is the first time, after having an argument, we've done nothing but take a good night sleep.)

Hay… I'm so tired of thinking to the things Cruella is doing. I don't want to hear anything about Cruella. She thought me how to hated her. Before… i don't care about Cruella De Vil, but the way she call… and her text ( bhe-bhe, miss you, i know we will see each other in time, bhe wag ka mag alala kapag nag ka work me bibili kita PSP…. kebs! ), chat and email my partner, pretending that nothing bad happens to them. She's a buffalo in our relationship. She is so selfish, she can't accept the fact that her ex don't love her anymore. Grrrr…. !@##$%! Sorry! Dada's mine now! I don't want to be selfish… but my friend told me, its not bad to be selfish…  sometimes… we need this especially when you are fighting for your love & your relationship. Sometimes i was thinking if i will just give her back to Cruella? but someone's holding me back and thats her, my dada… she never gets tired of telling and explaining me everything to me. One time she told me this "I'm so damn hurt from knowing that the person I love don't believe me and don't trust me".It's kinda sad… but in some ways its true but not perfectly true, theres a reason behind why i don't believe her that much and she knows that, and i know she understands me… well, its all about Cruella.  Jealousy? ( may part na ganun na nga~) but it's about Cruella's attitude of being a Buffalo in our life. I should not be like this…. i should not be distracted….. but i love this person so much and i don't want her to walk away… and like what she always told me “Please don't leave me”. I will never ever leave you and I'm staying here beside you. Hay…

“Hmmm… walang magtataas ng kilay moment ko to'”