Losing my way

It is breaking me down
Watching the world spin round
While my dreams fall down
Is anybody out there?
-”At first this was i, so down, haven't got an idea what comes in my mind and leave all things behind.”

Oh my god please forgive me (father hear my prayer)
'Cause I know I've done some wrong in this life
If I could do it all again
Have just one more chance
To take all those wrongs and make them right
“I know you hear me crying for you to help me surpass all of these…. Help me bring back my old self again. This is not me, I'm making myself which is not i, help me not to adopt all the negative energies around me. I see myself that i adopt something that is not capable for my character that change my personality. Help me not attach with anyone of them, i don't want to get involve, there life is not colorful as mine. I don't want to be like them, there life is moving one way. God, please clear my mind and clean my heart.”

*This stanza is from the song Losing my way by Justin.

I’m Sorry

I'm sorry for being selfish

I'm sorry for being paranoid

I'm sorry if i don't see things that you did for me.

I'm sorry for not thrusting you.

I'm sorry if i am not a strong person as you expect.

I'm sorry……

Four walls……

Alone again in this empty room…..

It s been 7 days since i left their house. Its kinda sad when your alone. Even though i have a kulot na dugyot friend here next door you get bored parin. Actually this is the first time i live alone on my own. Some times you have this feeling of depression… you like to cry all night, remembering many sad moments of your life. You miss everyone.. your friends, your love and your old life. You miss them all. You will force to sleep all day just to forget everything that reminds you of sadness. Every song i hear, every picture i see reminds me everything, you can't stop your tears to fall, smile and pretend that you are ok.Well,  I know how to take care of myself, to do everything on my own, but when sadness comes…. sigh*

Last night it get mingled with my fellow house mates, its kinda fun but theres still missing. You are laughing just to say you are laughing at there jokes, you are shouting just to say you are happy with their company. I miss everything in my life…. But being alone, you got a time to think of everything in your life, you mix and match situations… realized everything. Sometimes you will get mad at your self, (why did i do this, look at your self!). Maybe this is just another blank wall in my life, God gave me these to figure out how to crossed this obstacles… to paint it and leave it with full bright colors.

Life is too short, theres no time to spare, i have to be strong for myself and for the three of us. I don't want to see my future with full of sadness and despair. God… please give me strength to do all of this. Give me a great dedication to start all over again. Don't let me to be frustrated, help me to get up every time i fall down. Give me a strong wall … Help me to be brave to face all of this…..

“I may not be the perfect & a bright person as you see, but i can be a right person and prove everything that i can do better than that. “

FEATURING: Ang redhorse naka smile

FEATURING: Ang redhorse naka smile

 

Eto ang usuall the iniinum natin na redhorse payat at sexy ang kabayo maganda ang hair.

At the back it says “Experience the distinct full-flavored taste and extra satisfying strength of a world-class premiun strong beer” at kulay yello and font.

 

Hep…. hep… extra satisfying ba kamo… Eto and mas matindi

 

TENEN!…..
 

Presenting ang redhorse naka smile.

 

Iba ang itsura diba, punkista tong kabayo, tayo tayo ang hair, tusok tosok at macho… Color red ang font sa likod and it says “ For the distinct full flavored taste”.

 

Mas masarap ito kasi masmaganda ang timpla at tama. Ito ang unang timpla ng redhorse minsan minsan lng nagkakaron nito sa isang case ng grande nagiisa lng siya minsan wala pa, kaya wala kasi nagpagpilian na ng tindero na tomador.

Try this i bet you surely love this!!! TOMA NA!

Echuka…

Pain, hate, grief no reason to live. I'm hoping to be with you just for a while, I'm hoping i can hug you, kiss you. Baby talk with you. I miss your sweet smile, i miss your cute voice, your happy dance, your jam full tummy. Your big voice when you sang with me and your angry face while shouting at me. I miss taking care of you when you are not feeling well, i don't care if i don't eat, sleep; i don't care if i spend all of my money, my time, taking care of you, all i want is to see your smile and feel well again. I miss the times you and i fixing our self together, we put make-up to each other. When i got home you always told me that you don't want me to go to the office anymore because you missing me so much. When i got home you are there waiting for me so we can go to bed together. I miss you playing my stuffs, wearing my clothes using my accessories. I miss all of you. I want to be with you now, but i know it will not happen. I'm hoping that i can be with you again, be with you not for a while but for a life time. I miss you… i miss you so much. I will do everything just to be with you again. Promise. Just wait and we will be together again baby.